June 4th, 2002

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broken broken broken

why does it feel like everything is falling apart?

I could feel shattered pieces falling away from me on the drive home.

In another month Shawkial and Gwri will be gone, and there will be nothing here but my kitty. I wish i could talke my kitty to work with me. Love my kitty. And my kitty tollerates me cause i give her food and water when i'm around. Wish relationships with people were that simple.

I wish i had more people to share my life with. Wish i had someone very important to share it with.

Maybe i should sleep. Not feeling very tired right now though, just bad.
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    empty
happy

*yawn*

Got home at about 2 last night, went to bed at about 3, and woke up at 12:30. Didn't get into work till about 2:15. Feeling better now though as long as i don't think too much =)

I'd told my boss the day before (well, technically at about 1:30 that morning =) that i'd probably sleep in some and get in later than normal, and he said that was fine.

The one bug i had from last night is now fixed, and everything is checked in. Now they want changes to the menus made so they can take pictures for the manual.
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mad

Lost

Hoobastank - Crawling in the Dark

I will dedicate
and sacrifice my every
thing for just a second's worth
of how my story's ending,
And I wish I could know
if the directions that I take,
and all the choices that I make,
won't end up all for nothing

Show me what it's for,
make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
Is there something more
than what I've been handed
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.

Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to
use my heart and not my eyes
to navigate the darkness.
Will the ending be
ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see
the ending to my story?

Show me what it's for,
make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the asnwer.
Is it something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer!

So when the hell will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
And how much longer 'til I finally know?
Cause I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me,
in front of me!

Show me what it's for,
make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
Is it something more,
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer!
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