January 9th, 2002

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The Enemy Within

Things crawl in the darkness
That imagination spins
Needles at your nerve ends
Crawl like spiders on your skin

Pow-pow-pow-pounding in your temples
And a surge of adrenaline
Every muscle tense to fence the enemy within

I'm not giving in to security under pressure
I'm not missing out on the promise of adventure
I'm not giving up on implausible dreams
Experience to extremes
Experience to extremes

Suspicious looking stranger
Flashes you a dangerous grin
Shadows across your window
Was it only trees in the wind?
Every breath a static charge
A tongue that tastes like tin
Steely eyed outside to hide the enemy within

I'm not giving in to security under pressure
I'm not missing out on the promise of adventure
I'm not giving up on implausible dreams
Experience to extremes
Experience to extremes

To you - is it movement or is it action?
Is it contact or just reaction?
And you - revolution or just resistance?
Is it living, or just existance?
Yeah, you - it takes a little more persitence
To get up and go the distance

I'm not giving in
I'm not missing out
I'm not giving up on implausible dreams
Experience to extremes
I'm not giving in to security under pressure
I'm not missing out on the promise of adventure
I'm not giving up on implausible dreams
Experience to extremes
Experience to extremes

-Rush
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mergh

I don't know whether i feel more hollow inside or the world seems more empty outside. I'm not sure if i should be crushing inwards or exploding out into the void.

I didn't wake up till 1 or 2 today. Once i got up i spent some time reading and some time online on irc and talking to kialyn.

I went to the mall at about 8 to get some dinner. I was planing on going to Borders afterwards and i wanted to try getting some CDs at hot topic.

I went through Robinson's May as usual and morna was there so i waved hi to her.

When i got to hot topic i found that two of the CDs i'd been thinking of getting before had been sold =( I got the third one though and went to get some food.

I ate way too much, a big thing of potato skins and four krispy kreme donuts.

I stoped to talk to morna on my way out since there was nobody left in her section, and then went to borders.

I was looking for a book on C that was recomended to me, but couldn't find it, so i got some manga instead.

I went to the cafe area and got some coffee and read the manga. There were a few cute girls around the store, but i wa too depressed to really even think about how i could try striking up a conversation with any of them.

I _should_ try to go to bed early tonight, though i don't know if i'll manage it. My best friend is (hopefully) driving up to visit tomorrow! *bounce* I got to talk to her on the phone today too which was also nice =) I hadn't talked to her (other than over the internet) or seen her in about a year and a half.
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Wish Survey

You've just found a magic device (ring, lamp, whatever) that will grant you one wish, however the bigger and better the thing you wish for the less likely it is to happen. You're not told what a "reasonable" likely to be granted wish would be. Wishing for something trivial like a buck would definitely be granted, wishing for more wishes definitely wouldn't be. You'll have to use your own judegement for anything inbetween.

These are good wishes, you don't need to worry about being cursed by bad wording. If you say "make me a banana" then you will either recieve a banana or you will not, you don't need to worry about becoming a banana yourself. It's also not a competition in linguistics, you can't lump together two things that are clearly unrelated, "I wish I could fly and had a million dollars," wouldn't be granted. However something closely related, "I wish I had a million dollars and didn't have to pay taxes," would be okay although it would be less likely to be granted than just "I wish I had a million dollars," or "I wish I didn't have to pay taxes," alone.

Feel free to explain your answers, it's more interesting that way.

If you were going to make a "shoot for the moon" wish what would it be? (Something really big that you suspect might not be granted)

I'd want to be immortal. Not just clinically immortal, but the kind where you're higly resistent to being killed too. Like the royal family in Zelazny's Amber series. A better but less well read example would be the people in Robert Reed's Marrow.

Other than wishing to be a god what better wish could you have? =)

If you were going to wish for something that you feel you would have even odds of getting what would it be?
To be the smartest person on the planet. It's kind of a risky wish though since "smartest" isn't very well defined. However it's not _too_ unreasonable to wish for, after all it wouldn't really be asking for something unnatural, I'd just end up just a smidge smarter than whoever the current smartest person is.

What would you wish for if you wanted to be fairly sure that it would be granted?
Financial security. I'd want a house somewhere (preferably either in southern california or washington) and enough money in my bank account to pay the taxes on it and support myself in a reasonble manner for the rest of my life even if i never worked again. I would think that this would be a fairly simple wish to grant, money and property are pretty mundane things, and the amount i'm talking about really isn't that large.

What is something that you would be really tempted to wish for, but on second thought probably wouldn't?
True love. But i don't know how it would be granted. I don't even really know what true love is. If the wish just caused someone else and i to fall madly in love would that really count? I'm not sure that i would want the wish screwing with my or other's emotions, and if it just brought out feelings that were already there it would be a waste of a wish wouldn't it?

Which of these wishes would you actually make?
To be the smartest person on the planet. I'd want to have at least some chance of the wish being granted, but wishing for something mundane like money even though i'd be more likely to get it seems kind of like a waste. I'd rather wish for something that i couldn't get naturally on my own.