November 25th, 2001



I hate being angry.

I don't know how to express this feeling. I don't know who i should express it to or who i should hide it from. I don't know in what format or media or in what way i should express it.

People have said that i don't get angry about enough things, maybe they just don't know about the things lurking inside of me.

Every time i've expressed my feelings when i'm angry it's gone badly, people withdraw from me, get angry with me in return, realize that maybe i _am_ a bad person, i don't know.

If i can't talk about it, how do i deal with it? I don't want to make things any worse than they already are.
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    angry angry


I looked on AIM about 11pm, and Kialyn was online. She said that she'd talked with Morna and Bricriu, and wanted to come over and see Shawkial and i for emotional support.

We sat and talked for awhile, and then we all watched some more Nadesico together.

I wish i knew what to do or say to make Kialyn feel better.

I don't know how Morna is feeling, she hasn't answered any email or been on AIM at all. I hope she's doing okay.
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    stressed stressed