November 22nd, 2001



I finished up almost everything on my task early tuesday afternoon. There were a few small problems that cna't be resolved until other people finish their tasks, and one part that looked like it would take a long time to get done, which i figured i would get done after vacation.

While i was at work i talked to Morna, and she said that she was getting out of work at 8:15 and asked if i was interested in doing something together. Allyn was flying out of town to visit her ex-east-coast-boyfriend (assuming of course that she actually sticks to that, i suppose that it's some consolation that i'm not the only one that was dumped in one form or another) so i had no reason not to do something with her. Even if Allyn hadn't been out of town i probably would have rather spent time with Morna. I hadn't gotten to see Morna too much lately, she has as much right to my time now as Allyn does, and seeing her wouldn't be as painful as seeing Allyn would be.

Kialyn had also said that she was interested in hanging out before i went to see Morna, so i checked in my code as quick as i could and left at about 4. Traffic was fairly good given the time of day, apparently i had gotten off just before the main rush hour crunch, so it only took me an hour to get home.

Kialyn had called the apartment while i was on my way home, so i called her back as soon as i got there, and said that i would come pick her up.

We went out to Denny's, and were served by the cute waitress. She acted friendly, but i'm not sure if she even recognized me or not =/

I had a snack since i was planing on going to dinner with Morna later. Well, it was a little more than a snack. I ordered a bowl of soup and the Sampler appetizer. Kialyn had said that she'd help me eat some of the appetizer, but ended up not, so i ate almost all of it myself.

We went back to the apartment and watched some Utana together with Shawkial. Buffy came on at 8, and i asked Kialyn if i should take her back to the dorm, and she said that she'd just stay there and watch Buffy with Shawkial and Gwri.

I went to the mall and wandered about Robinsons May until Morna got off at 8:15. She said that she could drive while we went to dinner and then she'd take me back to my car later. We went to a place that was kind of a cross between a mexican resturant and a family diner. We had tacos and Morna had some flan for dessert.

We talked about capitalism and love and soulmates and lots of other things. I wish i was able to spend time with her and talk with her like that more often.

Morna said that Bricriu wouldn't be getting home until midnight, and suggested that we should go back to her place and watch a movie, to which i happily agreed. We rented Shrek at her local video store.

I got to rub Morna's back and snuggle with her while we watch the movie, it was very nice. I miss being able to touch her and hold her. I wish i knew something i could do that would make her love me again.

We got done at about 11:30 and Morna drove me back to the mall so i could get my car.


Morna had told me tuesday night that she didn't start work the next dall till 3, and said that she might call me and we could do something together.

I got up at about 10 or 11 i think, and never got a call from Morna =(

Shawkial invited Kialyn over for dinner, or actually to make and have dinner =) Shawkial and Gwri needed to go get ingredients at the store so i went to pick Kialyn up.

Kialyn and Shawkial made most of the dinner, while i was the Useless Sous Chef =) Gwri just relaxed on the couch the whole time =)

While Shawkial and Kialyn were preparing stuff i put some of the clutter on the counters away, wiped down the counter, cleaned the dishes, grated some parmesan cheese, and stired the alfredo sauce. It's so fun to be doing stuff in the kitchen when i get to be doing it with Kialyn =)

After dinner Gwri and i cleaned the rest of the dishes, and then we all watched the rest of the first Utena DVD and finished about 10.

Yesterday was about as close to a thanksgiving dinner as i'm going to get. Shawkial and Gwri are going off ot visit Shawkial's family, Morna and Bricriu are going off to visit Bricriu's family, Kialyn is going off to visit her family. I get to stay at the apartment and take care of the cats.

Apparently Kialyn told Morna and Bricriu something about needing to think about her relationship with them. I have really mixed feelings about that. I don't want Morna to be unhappy or hurt, but if their relationship did end or change, then Kialyn might decide to become lovers with me. I haven't talked to Kialyn too much about how things are going with them, or rather i ask about it, but don't offer any advice. I do my best to think of things in light of Morna, but i'd still be too worried about my personal bias to try and give Kialyn and advice. Mostly i've just been telling her that i want her to be happy.

It reminds me of similar situations when i was in college, when i would try to tell the person that everything was going to be alright even though part of me wanted her to break up with her SO so that she'd be available, and another part of me felt guilty about wanting that. Except in that case there was no indication at all that she was interested in me in any way.

I'm thinking of going to boston market and getting some food. We went there for thanksgiving last year, and it was pretty good. Only thing is i don't know if they're doing anything other than pre-orders today =/
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Happy Thanksgiving

Shawkial and Gwri turned around partway on their way to Shawkial's family's place and came back. Apparently Shawkial was too tired to feel safe driving, and Gwri has been feeling sick and didn't feel up to driving either.

They went and slept for awhile,a nd then came out and ate a Subway sub that they'd bought for the trip apparently.

I'd called my parents earlier and talked to them about plane flight stuff and told them about Allyn and i "breaking up" or whatever you want to call it.

They suggested that i should go out to a restaurant and have a real dinner, but i didn't feel like going out to a restaurant alone and Shawkial and Gwri already had their own food.

I went to the store to buy some french bread so i could have bread and cambozola, but the store had closed at 6. (Which i had suspected it would have, but figured i should at least go check.) So i tried going to Burger King, but they were closed. I drove out to Del Taco, and they were open!

I'm not sure that buying a thanksgiving dinner in the form of tacos and quesadillas and chilli cheese fries at a fast food joint is any less pathetic than going to eat a a sit-down restaurant alone, but it felt a little less depressing.

So that was my thanksgiving. I hope everyone else had a better one.