April 26th, 2001



I wish I believed in a god or goddess, so that I could beg forgiveness for whatever horible things I must have done in a past life.

Things can always _always_ _ALWAYS_ get worse.

I've always known this, I never seriously think "Well, it can't get any worse." Perhaps it's because of this that the universe goes out of it's way to show me that no, I didn't really understand how much worse things can get. THIS is how much worse things can get.

Maybe the universe will keep making things worse and worse until I finally utter that dreaded phrase, and then it will spring shut the trap crafted for me out of a thousand painful memories.